Feeling Anxious?Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Do you ever feel anxious?
I really struggle with anxiety. It is something that bothers me on most days. I have talked a little about my health problems in the past. I'm usually very private about my condition because I don't want anyone to think that I'm just looking for sympathy or attention. I've had many friends tell me that I should try to open up to you guys more about difficult topics like scary health problems and emotional issues. The main reason I usually keep my personal problems out of this blog is because I want to be a positive force in the blog world, and I really don't want to bring anyone down with my issues.
The truth is, I struggle with anxiety on a daily basis because of some of the medication I have to take. Anxiety isn't something that I can really describe. It's just a terrible and awful feeling. Anxiety affects people differently so it's hard for one person to truly understand how another feels when it comes to anxiety. My mother is constantly telling me that she understands how I feel because she has anxiety about money. That frustrates me because my anxiety is very different from hers. Everyone experiences normal anxieties about stressful situations. My anxiety attacks me for no reason. I start feeling scared and nervous. My hands, arms, and chest start aching. And I have no reason why I feel this way. Sometimes I feel anxious even though I'm having a wonderful day. Have you ever seen Breakfast at Tiffany's? Holly Golightly talked about getting the "mean reds", where one would feel terrified for no reason whatsoever. That's sort of how I feel. Chronic anxiety sometimes makes me feel like life is unbearable.
My younger cousin just recently talked to me a little about her own anxiety. She expressed similar feelings to mine and that made me feel a little less like a freak. She told me that many people take an antidepressant to help with their anxiety. I know that taking medication helps a lot of people, but it's not really an option for me. I really try to deal with this anxiety. I take lots of different vitamin supplements that help with the anxiety symptoms. I go running when I'm feeling extra jittery. I work on a crochet project when my hands start aching. And sometimes I just curl up in a ball on my bed and wait for the anxiety to ebb away. I know that sounds kind of lame.
I just try to stay positive about it all. That is my main coping mechanism. Sometimes I even irritate myself with my positivity. The main thing I have found is that anxiety requires lots of patience. Patience from your loved ones and patience with yourself. And it also requires lots of self-love.
I just wanted to ask you guys if any of you have issues with anxiety? And if so, how do you deal with it??
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